It’s me! And I’m awake during the day —- crazy!
I like nights in the hospital. You’re it. You’re the decision maker. It’s a little scary but it also builds confidence in your clinical skills.
Nights are also calm and quiet — less people bombarding you with questions, comments, hellos, and conversation. This is why I like weekends in the hospital — less folks to have to appease and keep happy.
You have more time to think whereas you can go weeks without thoughts during day shifts because your brain is full up with to-do lists, meetings, and scheduled whatevers.
When too many things are happening or too many people are talking, I have no sense of presence and can’t seem to enjoy the moment. But when it’s just a select few people around me, my brain is quieter and I can feel the moment, I can live in the here and now.
I am excited to switch to days for one reason: mornings. I love mornings. I often wake up in the early morning feeling very happy. I love the idea that I am up and there is a whole day to produce good work! A whole day to learn and discover! To spend time with loved ones! To adventure! To get good and tired before sleep — and by sleep, I mean really sleep!
Every morning when I wake up, I feel lucky! Like Bob Dylan said once, “A man is a success if he gets up in the morning and goes to bed at night and in between does what he wants to do.”
Peace out, October! I’m off to another night shift.